I HATE THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I take that back....I don't mind thanksgiving..........................I hate how my Grandma Jo decided that she wanted everyone to come.....and I mean EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right....including Tim....I don't know why she wanted him there.....nobody likes him........and Pete was there too.....he seems to have it ingrained in his mind that Tim molested me and is not too slow in talking to me about it and about how I have to let it all out in order to become more mellow...like him............cuz that is exactly what I want to do with my life......be a near 40 year old getting high ALL the time and living in my mother's basement with two kids that I haven't seen in years because the person I was "married to in God's eye's" decided that they wanted to use soap....which by the way he doesn't believe in......yea....soooooo needless to say I was not looking forward to thanksgiving......I only stayed for an hour and a half thank God..........but yea....last night I was SOOO worried about being in the same place as Tim.......I was totally bugging out and completely lost it........I had another of those panic attacks that Tim seems to cause for me.........so I needed to get it out of my mind so that I could calm down a little......so I called chelsea and made her talk to me about anything......I don't remember what we talked about....but it helped a little....then i turned on my avenue Q. CD and calmed down a lot more.......well the rest of the weekend shouldn't be too bad....I'm getting up early tomorrow to go shopping....I'm getting an MP3 player....YAY GO ME!!!!!!

well gnight.

oh and I almost forgot......my hair is now almost black and I have bangs......in the words of my brother-uncle I look like "ulvira of the night"

I am sad and happy at the same time to tell everyone that mickey and I are no more......when you are 15 and 17 long distance relationships just don't work....but If we are both still single (or single again) next summer we will hook up......until then we still have our random conversations on line and the occassional phone call......well more later...bye

I'm back.....tour was a blast...we had shitloads of bus breakdowns...we sent three busses to the trasher and eventually got a cavie bus...(cavie being short for Cavalier...the all guys drum corps from Rockford illinois.).....I got a free day in Canada at niagara falls......I had a thing with a blue stars guy for a while but that didn't last long because I finally got to see Mickey again.....AND we are officially going out as of saturday night.....AND I forgot to take a picture of him for the second year in a row......I think I'm going to make him send me some on-line.....We're trying to get enough money so that he can afford the gas to drive out here and come see me.....And I'm planning to go see him in december for a while......sigh...stupid lake...I could cut hours off of my travel time if it weren't in the way.....We ended up getiing 5th in div 3 which was better than last year but considering how we were in third until like the last week when we went down to 8th and back up to 5th it was kinda sad.....but hey I got a nifty medal from it.....it's like 4 in the moring and I think I want to go to bed noe.....ttyl......~mimi